I have always been shy and in a way a little anxious, even as a little girl. I remember that I never wanted to let go of my mum’s hand whenever we were some place I didn’t know. I was always scared to get lost, to be left alone or not to find my way home.
Now I am an adult myself and some things have changed, others have not. Obviously, I don’t walk around holding my mum’s hand anymore. Now it’s my boyfriends 😉 I am not as scared to get lost anymore because I know I only need one look on my mobile phone’s maps and I will be alright. But I am still shy and I am still anxious, yes sometimes even scared. Of what?
Well, if I knew that, things would be so much easier. I am scared of new situations, new people, new jobs. There are those questions in my head: What if they don’t like me? What if I am not good at what I am doing? What if I don’t enjoy what I am doing? What if I fail? What if I make a fool of myself?
Those questions have been making my life harder ever since I started thinking about them. Still I have always tried to challenge myself with new situations, different places or new jobs. I have done things of which others would probably say that this was pretty brave. After school I went to Australia by myself. Then I left for university, lived on my own far away from home and I worked for different companies where people expected a lot from me. Maybe I just like to challenge myself more than others do and that’s why I have these questions. Or maybe it’s just who I am and I can’t do anything about it.
This shyness can maybe also be seen in my style. I am not someone who likes to be the center of attention. I would call it elegant reservation. However, I would love to set a statement with my clothes, be more extravagant and outgoing. But also here I have a question in my head: What if people don’t like it and look at me strange? So this blog is actually another big challenge for me. Trying to dress differently, going out and taking pictures in public and then writing about very personal stuff is challenging for me. But I like it and that’s why I continue doing it. Maybe some day in the future, also those voices in my head will be quiet…
What about you? Do you also have to challenge yourself? What is your biggest fear and how do you deal with it?
Today I am wearing an all Minimum outfit. It’s pretty girly and thus not 100 % my style, but as I said, I wanted to try something out. I hope you like it